embarrassed

There are certain events in your life that you reply in your mind at random times.

A few years ago I was sitting in church. There was an open discussion, don't remember the topic. A woman made a comment that had a clear question that I thought I had the answer to.

I raised my hand and gave this information to the group. I made eye contact with this woman whom I had never met, I guessed that she was a member of the Mormon church but didn't come to church often. I thought that everyone understood that my motives were completely friendly and suportive. This is customery in Mormon Sunday school.

I was REALLY wrong. This women promptely called me out loudly infront of everyone and said some horrible things to me, accusing me of singling her out and saying that she was a bad person. I was completely shocked. I don't remember if I replied to her. I probably said something in an effort to smooth it over.

The lesson progressed, and I couldn't stop myself from crying. I was 27years old siting in a room of about 100 people crying because this lady I didn't know yelled at me. I felt like a child who had just been slapped and humiliated infront of all my church friends.

The woman heard me crying and spoke up. She appologized and I think she even came over and hugged me. I was still pretty tramatized and didn't find her actions at all conforting.

After the lesson was over and about half of the people left the room another woman whom I wasn't close to at all came over to me to ask if I could babysit. I didn't know what she wanted, but I pretty much made her hug me before she could get a word out. When I realized what she wanted, I was really embarrassed. I am still embarrassed thinking about it.

I am sure that most of the people in that room don't remember the event even happening, and probably didn't think any less of me for crying.

Sometimes when people are mean I wonder what they would think if they knew how much they actually hurt other people.